My DrEaMviLLe

          Confessions… Confessions… Hmm… Well, personally, LOVE plays an important role in my life. Love from my Saviour, Lord Jesus Christ; my family, mom & dad; lovely friends and basically, love from every person who cares about me. God’s love, is undeniably the greatest love of all. His never-ending unconditional love for us… It’s a wholesome experience, I am anticipating to be reunited with Him, once again! During my darkest hours, I know that God is the only One who will be there for me! Knowing that I have one true Friend always eases the pain that I’m going through… Next on the list of the most amazing love, is my beloved parents… Although mom is no longer with me physically, I can feel her existence next to me, when I cry under my comforter, which is the last gift from her. And dad, a hero whom I’ve never known he is, surprisingly shows that he is an inspiring counsellor who can make me feel that whatever pain or hardships I’m going through, are not that bad, and that I’m not the most unfortunate person in this world. Yes dad, you are right, there is no need to bother what or how others ridicule us, as long as we do what we should do (our responsibilities) and time will tell, who’s right and who’s wrong. Yes, because of an emotional and long conversation with dad (after all these years of lacking proper communication), I found the true way I should live my life. God, together with my parents, had helped me to cope with the ups and downs of life & I realised that there’s still HOPE in life… I hope that we would always continue to encourage, support, help, love and motivate each other. Apart from them, I have a superb circle of friends who have been with me all this while, sharing not only joy, but also sorrow as well… Their endless love gave a whole new meaning to my life. Who doesn’t need friends, right? But the truth is, good, reliable & trustworthy friends are difficult to find; I am so thankful to The Lord that He granted me with so many wonderful friends! Minus the peer pressure, my treasured friends have helped me through good & bad times… What will I do without them? I hope that I can keep the friendship I have with every single one of my buddies. Till death do us part! (For me, that phrase works for friendship too! ^_^ ) Now, mentioning the other kind of LOVE, as it is commonly known, the attraction force between opposite genders… Hmm, so far, (sad to say) I have not experience the beautiful part of it, as I always have my heart broken each time I fall in love. I wished I’d have a commitment with someone, but sadly, it never happened… The first guy: Things did not work out because I was still immature about all this lovey-dovey stuff. The second guy: I have no idea why he attracted me, perhaps his kindred spirit did. However, I was crushed when he had someone else. Third guy (at the moment): It is a Mission Impossible for us to be together… (In deep thoughts) I wonder why some Malaysians are still so sceptical about an inter-racial relationship…? For crying out loud, this is a multi-racial country, hey we are talking about Malaysia here! (Lets out a heavy sigh…) I always question God, "Why I’d meet Mr.Wrongs and the Mr.Right is not for me?", "Why that fate has to fool me, why let me meet HIM when we are not meant to be?", "Why am I always unlucky in this love field?"… Why, why, why? You guys have no idea how pro I am giving advice & helping people solve their love problems… Nevertheless, I am a failure in handling my own issues… I just don’t understand why would a guy choose to runaway & hide, instead of confronting the issue together… I’ve never been that courageous in my whole life until I knew this third guy… I seriously thought HE was THE ONE! But I guess, it’s never meant to be… I still don’t understand, why did I fall for someone who gave up without a fight…? And there’s this one guy whom I think is so my Prince Charming, but yet, I cannot and MUST NOT fall for him, ’cause my intuition tells me that, we are sooooo IMPOSSIBLE, despite how it’s never impossible with God… This is crazy & ridiculous! I don’t have a clue why, but I haven’t given up hope… I’ll continue to wait for my prayers & questions to be answered, even to my last breath… I just wonder, when can I finally let go, when HE has moved on with life…? Somehow, I prefer & rather stay single now… No commitment, no hassle, no heartbreaks… No matter what, I still have GOD, dad & my precious friends! Love… Will I ever have the kind of fairytale love story I’ve always dreamed of? I guess only God knows & time will tell… Anyway, may the Cupid continue to work miracles in all the couples’ lives! True love is once in a lifetime! Don’t miss it, don’t let it be the one thing you regret most in your life~~