My DrEaMviLLe

What My Heart Wants To Say…

It’s My Life chapter 5

Filed under: Uncategorized — paulinelam at 8:10 am on Sunday, January 8, 2006

(This was supposed to be posted on January 8th… Whatever was wrong with the computer… Get to post it at last! +_+)

    Hmm… It’s been a hectic week… I finally completed my training for my job, Card Direct Sales Executive for Citibank… Now the real challenge begins. I’m still anxious about it, wondering how am I supposed to get in 15 submissions for the first month (with soooo little support from my family and friends! So much for my “happy beginning” you see)… Seriously, the training itself had been draining my energy, making me tired all the time - fatigue. Worse, I had nausea… Gosh, it’s surprising that this nine-to-six job is actually more tiring than my ten-to-ten promoter job last time… Why so? First of all, I have to wake up as early as 6.30am, to get myself ready for work… And by the time work ends, it’s already 6 something in the evening when I reach Kajang KTM Station… Imagine all the walking and talking (I’ll have to make tonnes of calls for my job) for the whole day… Moreover, it’s as if I no longer have a life. I have to sacrifice my precious favourite thing to do, being a couch potato!!! Oh noooo, my fave tv programmes! Coming home from work, I’m already half-dead… And I can hear the bed and pillow calling me… That’s why, where to find the energy to stay awake and watch tv??? *Sobs* Thankfully, Tru Calling is ending on Star World. But then, there’s Charmed which is back with a new season. Lucky me, Smallville season 2 has come to the part that I’ve watched before. Thank God I’ll only work from Monday to Friday. (Bet there’s a lot of catching up to do on the weekends, especially sleep…) And having to take the lift every time I go to work, sort of make me feel one kind, like unstable, even while standing on the ground. Never mind, perhaps I’ll get used to it soon… Fortunately, I had a bunch of nice training mates. Although what I really disliked was, this one particular guy who was a chain smoker and always came into the room with the stinking smell of cigarettes! He was sitting behind me and the smell really made me feel so uncomfortable and dizzy! I hope I don’t have to encounter any workmates who would smell like cigarette smoke anymore! (+_+) Well, on the bright side, I can finally make my name PAULINE, official… No more calling my maiden name or my surname! *Smiles*
So, it’s new year… and I had my hair cut the other day, to mark a brand new year, like what I would do since three years ago… Just that, this year, I had the haircut a week after new year started. This year, it was shorter, shoulder length… Oh, there goes the “more-girlish” look…!! Uhuks, no more nice long hair flying when the wind blows… I just hope my hair would grow long soon! I’ll have to soften it again, ‘cause it’s turned rough after the haircut! *Frowns* See, it’s always my own fault… Who was the one who wanted an office job? So called to take up the challenge… Who was the one who wanted to work far away from Kajang? Who was the one who wanted a “ritual” new-year haircut? And I wasted RM22 on a tv-gameshow contest… Not like I won anything… I destroyed myself… I guess… There’s just a price to pay… I better learn my lesson… No more worldly stuff! I’m happy and satisfied with what I have… Ought to be that, or else, pay a higher price for another lesson then! Now, let’s just keep my fingers crossed for this job… I had the assuring feeling that I’d be able to survive the first month, but somehow, I just lost that feeling… So anxious and stressed out… Wonder how long I can cope with this crazy working (office) life before I lose my sanity and life, completely…!? We’ll see… Only time will tell… Till then, may God see me through…

So much for my happy ending…

Filed under: Uncategorized — paulinelam at 5:51 am on Tuesday, January 3, 2006

         Sighs… It hasn’t been a good start of the new year for me… I started my training for my job as a card direct sales executive… I wanted to have an office job… be an O.L. (office lady)… Yeah, but what I didn’t expect was, it would involve so much hassle & stuff… Shopping for formal attire, brand new wardrobe… This and that… Worse, how to really look more like an O.L. instead of an immature teen-ish look… For crying out loud, I’ll be working in Citibank k… Gotta meet customers all… First day, awful… I had nausea, with this killing pain of headache… Who was so excited for this job? Adoi… Early morning, getting stuck in a packed train… just to reach my workplace in KL… A bad thing for someone who is so small-sized like me… Really feels like sandwich, with me being the meat (sardine, tuna… etc…) in between the bread… Yikes~ I really hope things will be better soon… New year konon… So-called lar… I just feel this string of bad luck that has been brought forward from last year… I thought there’s a brand new hope for a brand new year… Was I wrong? I hoped not… I’m still looking forward for a brighter future… Heh… When will there be a happy ending for once, in my life? Sighs again… Things just keep going wrong… God, help me! I thought there wouldn’t be homework anymore, not since I just finished my schooling life… College/University life is still way ahead of me… For now, it’s all work, work, work…!! Now that I end up at this cyber cafe, looking up information regarding credit cards… Troublesome since I have no internet access at home… Gee, tomorrow, gotta stand and be stuck in the too-loaded train again… And walk, walk, walk… Thank God my training mates are a bunch of nice people (not bad, considered friendly)… But the problem is with me… I kinda shy away from them… Didn’t know I was that reserved to myself…!!?? Aiseh… I’ll try harder to fit in the crowd… gain better communication skills… After all, this is the main thing for my job! New year, new (not so actually) resolutions… More like trying to achieve & fulfill last year’s undone resolutions… Life… So much for my happy ending, huh?~~~

Gosh, typing this makes me forget my main intention of being stuck in this cyber cafe… My info~~~ (+_+)