My DrEaMviLLe

          Hmm… It’s been so long since I last updated my blog… Many events happened during this few months… Well, the STPM results were out on March 16th. To my surprise, I passed every subject (I took Pengajian Am, Maths T, Biology & Chemistry)! Oh gosh, it was a huge shock as I expected to fail, especially Chemistry as I never managed to pass the exams in school… I even got A- for Pengajian Am (one of the 5 As among my classmates)… Typing all this, I’m still in disbelief. When I knew my results, I was actually overjoyed yet at the same time I was overwhelmed by guilt because I felt like I didn’t deserve to pass… A few days before the results were out, I was stressed out and felt regret that I screwed up my STPM (It was awful & a rough journey as I’d lost interest in studies as I entered Upper Six- plus with all the problems I had)… Take Maths for example, I admit that I was totally left out in this particular subject as I hardly concentrate during lessons. What others learned in 7 months, I had to catch up & learn in 7 days, thanks to some help from a few friends. Frankly, I love numbers and I like Maths since kindergarten, people even say I’m good in remembering dates. Somehow I couldn’t seem to focus on Form Six Maths… I seriously had a tough time learning what I’d missed out since I started Upper Six. Thank goodness for the interest in numbers, I just did my best with what I could absorb… Add Maths was tough enough for SPM level, what’s more STPM- in English some more! Needless to say, Chemistry was another big challenge! Despite going for tuition, I still sucked in it. And u know what? For the first time in my life, I “tembak” all the 50 answers for STPM Chemistry objective paper- the real STPM paper- no kidding man! Still, I passed… My oh my, I must be such a good “tembaker” (shooter), ei? (+_+) Although I was anxious about my results, I kept a positive mind as I knew that it wouldn’t be the end of the road for me if I were to fail STPM… “I reap what I sow”, I thought… Besides, every cloud has a silver lining and I’m one who doesn’t think that education (having a degree, etc…) is everything! There are many people who succeed in their lives without a higher education cert… Agree? U guys may think that I say this because I passed, but believe it or not, I’m just telling the truth of what I had in mind even before I got my results… What matters is the journey and whole process of learning, not the results… My results were much better than what I had set for my standard! I’m the more laid-back type and “No use crying over spilt milk”… Anyway, I was worried about people looking down on me if I wasn’t gonna further my studies, but I realized I shouldn’t bother what others would think. People who truly care about me wouldn’t despise me just because I’m not highly educated, right? Truthfully, I felt undeserving because many who did better than me in school didn’t make it for the real STPM… Whatever it is, I absolutely believe in one thing now- The importance of having faith! I had faith in the Lord that He would work things out for me ‘cause only He knows what’s best for me. I prayed and surrendered everything to Him. It’s 90% God, 10% Me. My favourite verses from the Bible are undeniably true: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6) Well, it’s simply a MIRACLE I passed! God can work in such unexpected ways in our lives… Mentioning miracle, passing my STPM isn’t the only miracle that occurs in my life… Just barely 3 weeks ago before results, I won the tickets to Fort Minor’s concert. Frankly, I already gave up hope on winning since it was 26th February and there was still no news if I won any tickets (I entered the Galaxie mag contest). Moreover, I had no luck for Hitz.fm cue to sms for tickets, and I spent so much credit on that! Until that Sunday evening, I got the call that I won the Galaxie contest. I just came out from the bathroom, wrapped in a towel and jumping like a lunatic. It was such a surprise as I had already let go my dream to be at the concert. Who would have thought? My slogan was selected as one of the winners! Complete the sentence in 20 words or less: “I deserve to win because… I’d break through any fort, be it minor or major, just to catch Fort Minor in action! Believe me!” The concert was amazing, I even got to meet & greet Mike Shinoda and gang… But I was too stunned to speak! Getting to see Mike in person & touching him… It was so surreal! I thank God so much for giving me the wonderful opportunity! At least my effort on doing the postcard for the contest entry wasn’t wasted for nothing! The effort I put in was all worth it! The bottom line is: Have faith & Expect the unexpected! Miracle will happen, as long as u believe in one! Oh yeah, by the way, my friends (Ika, Yuni & Fairuz) & I went to Times Square Cosmo World for some fun, just to celebrate our A for Peng. Am- we always do crazy stuff- after stuffing ourselves with Pizza (Yuni’s treat)! (We celebrated as if we scored straight As) I gotta admit I’m a fainthearted person as I got so dizzy after the fourth and last ride- the DNA Mixer and vomited shortly after that… I was already having headache & imagine being bloated with so much food! I didn’t take the rollercoaster ride since I already freaked out! Man, if I knew that DNA Mixer would make me suffer for rest of the day, I wouldn’t have tried it! I was afraid of heights yet I dared myself trying the Solar Orbit thingy… Basically, I just got myself all whoozy & bruises with pain here and there… If I were to participate in Fear Factor, I guess it’s be my Doomsville end of me! Now u know me… *LOL*