“The Step Mom Invasion”
All right, first of all, I never want to post any blog about my step mom and how I feel about her all, as I’m afraid her daughter, meaning my step sis, would read my blog and tell her mother about it… (If u are indeed reading this LYY, don’t u dare tell ur mom or I swear I’ll never talk to u ever again!) Well, this time I just need to let out how I feel. I have enough of keeping things to myself. If I continue to bottle up, I’m gonna explode, literally! I don’t care if my step sis is gonna read this, but if she tells to her mom… That’s it! ‘Cause it happened before… I told her something and she went and told her mom (my step mom) about it and step mom told my relatives and the word had been passed around. I just don’t want to hear anything bad about me from my relatives telling that my step mom complained about me! It’s almost 4 or 5 years now since step mom entered my family and my life! And from day one itself, I’m always worried that my nightmare would come true- I grew up with fairytales, and u know how step mothers are in those stories… Okay, I won’t go in detail on what has happened in these few years but it’s enough to convince me that I do have an issue with step mom somehow. (Trust me, u won’t wanna know every single thing of what really happened in my family after the existence of my step mom!) And that’s another reason why I hate to be the eldest. It seems as if the eldest of the family will usually have issues with his/her step mother. It’s true, no doubt.
Plus lately, step mom’s been "attacking" my younger sister. "Attacking" as in always admonishing her, complaining about her, finding fault and all (u know what I mean)… Previously, I was the obvious target. So, why the change? Not that she doesn’t "attack" me anymore. Anyway, my younger brother is always the lucky one. Step mom hardly talks bad about him. And my dad, ugh, with his really old-fashioned mind, thinking that ONLY GIRLS should handle the housework. Duh, haven’t dad heard about house husband who does chores at home while the wife works? (I definitely won’t mind having a house husband in the future! I never think a male becoming a house husband is sissy in any ways!) With the added "benefit" of being the eldest, I get the blame & responsibility for everything! Tell u what, it’s getting more and more ridiculous! No matter how good I am or what I do, it’s never good enough… So what now? My step mother has issues with girls is it? I think she certainly has issues with daughters. Hello, she has a daughter of her own!! Oh, so, maybe that’s the reason why she can’t get along with daughters? Only God knows… and she herself too!
What annoyed me until I finally decided to put this on my blog is that, this morning, I woke up to see that my drawers had been moved out and some of my stuff (not in the drawers one) were on the floor. Step mom nagged about my stuff before but she didn’t have to go till the extreme of simply moving out my stuff right? For crying out loud, I know she’s a neat freak but I’m a big girl k!? So, I spent my morning packing my stuff without even having breakfast first but I didn’t care. I was just exasperated and I already had this sore throat from yesterday! *Urgh!* I was just upset, I knew I had a lot of stuff, but I already had plans to do spring cleaning k. I knew she meant good intentions, but her method was wrong. Didn’t have to mess with my stuff right? And what’s worse, I got flu because of the dust and I broke my nail! Also, I had to throw away a lot of stuff that I’d been collecting, or else I knew my stuff would remain that many! *Sobs* Well, basically, I never said step mom’s evil or bad or that she abuses me or what-so-ever, she still does what a housewife does and more importantly, I respect her as my father’s wife! It’s just that, most times, I can’t stand living in this house listening to her complaining about this and that. Or when my aunties tell me bad things about me that they said my step mom told. Why would she downgrade me like that? It just hurt so much more ’cause dad never defended for me… Had he forgotten that I’m his daughter? So, says who that blood is thicker than water? Absolutely NOT TRUE! Besides, I always defended my step mom whenever my aunts or neighbours talk bad about her. After all, she is still my step mother and she does take care of me although she’ll never replace my mother in my heart, not ever! Moreover, I just don’t want people to think of my dad like, "What kind of woman did he marry?" (U get what I mean, I hope…)
I just miss my mom so bad… I miss her like crazy that sometimes I think of taking the easy way out so that I can turn into a ghost and maybe I’ll get to see her spirit then! I know that if my mom’s still alive today, I’ll be a very happy young adult. Okay, maybe not this mature, but who cares ’cause my mom would always be there for me? Losing my mom who is my pillar of support & strength is like losing half of who I am… I guess, I’ll just have to be all the more determined to plan my future and leave this house to have my own life outside my family! Will someone just get me out of here??! *Sighs* Dear God, I still don’t understand why You took my mom away…? Seven years now and I still haven’t found the answer… Please guide me to please everyone without neglecting my own happiness and to make my family love & respect me…
As for my title… I came up with it when I thought of The British Invasion in the U.S. entertainment industry… U heard about The Beatles all, right? So in my case, I changed it to "The Step Mom Invasion"… Now I feel much better after releasing part of my misery… What is a blog for right? Hmm…
